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February 17, 2007. That was a long while ago. It was also my last post here. You know, even though my posts we anything but consistent, re-reading them is giving me some perspective. I find myself at another crossroads. Opportunities are arising and decisions will need to be made. Its funny how almost to the day I decide that I'm OK with where my life is, that it takes a hard right turn. I'll tell you about a very good example of this from my past, but let me you about now.

A few weeks ago I finally decided that I am OK with where I am right now. I like my job, Memphis is growing on me (some would say like a fungus), and I like my house. I have three kids, a beautiful wife, and things are good. It was kind of a double whammy coming to this conclusion. I was cutting the grass and listening to my Zune (random playlist, of course) when the song "Roll with Me" by Montgomery Gentry played. For the first time I really listened to the lyrics and understood:

Wake up in the morning
Get to living my life
Making sure that I'm all that I can be
Went to church on Sunday
There was a moment that came
I swear it was like the Lord spoke right to me

So now I'm slowing it down and I'm looking around
And I'm lovin' this town and I'm doing alright
Aint' worried 'bout nothing cept for the man I wanna be
I'm thinking maybe it's time to be livin' the rhyme
When I'm singing a song about nothing but right
And it'd sure be nice if you would roll with me

That's pretty much how I felt. Then Sunday at church, I heard much the same thing in the message. Funny how that works. BUT! Not two days later, I find out that there is a lot of opportunity coming within my group at work: jobs opening, international support, and more. And once again I find myself at the place where the thing I have been chasing for so long is coming when I don't necessarily want it.

So, now to the example of this from my past. In 1999, I came to a point where I was no longer interested in continuing school, my lease was running out on my apartment, and the church I was working for decided that they would not renew my "internship". I decided that I really didn't have anything to lose and would move back home to the Charleston area, find a job, and help out my mom around her house. That was about August.

When I got back to Charleston, my mom was attending Metro North Church. They were starting a college age group and I had some experience with that exact thing. The church I worked for in Clemson, DCF, was a college church. I offered to help lead the group and its bible study and I got back in touch with Thom Watson, who I had met about a year or so before when he and the Metro North youth group came to help make repairs to my mom's house. After a few weeks back at home, I had made peace with my situation. Among other things, I was done with women for a while. I really didn't want to even date anyone.

Fast forward to October. Thom is a very friendly guy. He knows (and is friends with) A LOT of people. Don't believe me? Check his Facebook friends count. Now cube that number and you have the amount of people Thom actually knows. ANYWAY, Thom invited a few friends from Charleston Southern University. No big deal, that's what you are supposed to do for a bible study. Some of them were cute, but again, I wasn't interested.

One girl in particular came back for a few weeks and one night, I found myself praying with her. It was something we did at the end of each night, we would break off and pray for each others requests if someone wanted us to. The girl had a normal request, she was concerned about a guy she liked and wanted to ask God to give her some direction on what she should do. Should she talk with him? Ask him out? That kind of thing. She didn't give any names, and I didn't ask. I just prayed with that girl as if it were anyone in the room. Here's the kicker: about halfway through my pious and intensive prayer, a little voice inside spoke to me and said, "You do realize you are praying about yourself, don't you?"

A week or so later, that girl called me up and asked if I wanted to go with her and her friends to Folly Beach to see the Leonid meteor shower. Why not? I had no other plans and it was just a few people going to the beach. A few people turned out to be me, her, and three of her girl friends. Nice. We drove out to Folly and once we got there strode the beach for a while looking at the stars. It was a good night for it - it was a cool, clear night and you could actually see some of the shooting stars from the meteor shower. After a while I found that she and I were pulling away from the others... or maybe they were pulling back. I stopped and faced the ocean, and she walked up beside me.

"I know what you're going to say", I told her.
"What do you mean?", she asked.
"Don't say it. I don't want to know."

Those were almost my exact words. Hey, it was ten years ago, I can't remember everything exactly. I just didn't want to hear her tell me she liked me. I didn't want that. It wasn't that I wasn't attracted to her, or anything of the sort, I just didn't want to be in a relationship. But I felt so bad. I knew how much she wanted to tell me. I knew it when I was praying with her.

A few days later I called her and asked her to go to the movies and dinner "as friends". I really wanted to be friends with her and I hoped that I could convey that and, somehow, get her to understand where I was emotionally. We went to see Sleepy Hollow, one of the first of many Tim Burton/Johnny Depp collaborations. We were early for the movie so we talked a bit. I found out more about her: she was in marching band, loved punk music, like video games, and used to build computers in high school. Exsqueeze me? Baking powder? Come again? Liked video games? Built computers? Not only was she hot (short & spiky, platinum blonde hair, beautiful eyes, and curves that won't stop), but she was a closet geek too! Damnit! I didn't want this! I didn't want to be attracted to her or anyone for that matter. Why now? Why when I was happy being alone did this have to happen?!

Life's funny that way. It lets you know that not only does God have his own peculiar sense of timing, but that he has a really sly sense of humor. After our "non-date" for which she reminded me that I paid for dinner and wouldn't allow her to pay, we started seeing more of each other. When I say more, I mean nearly every day.

A few weeks went by and I went to my mother and told her that I thought the girl was "the one". I told her all the things I liked about her. I wasn't totally "in love", but I knew... I knew that I couldn't let someone this special get away. My mom told me that she knew it when she first saw her, which is funny because later I found out that her mom said the same about me. My mom did something very special then: she gave me the engagement ring my father had given to her. In it was one of the smallest diamonds I had seen on an engagement ring. But that truly didn't matter. The stone was my great-grandmother's and my dad had the ring made with that special diamond. Now, my mom was giving it to me to ask for the girl's hand in marriage. I put the ring in an Italian music box and put it under the Christmas tree at her parents' house. December 25th, 1999 I asked Jess to marry me.

Six months later on June 4th, 2000, we were married in a small ceremony at her parent's church. Its sometimes ironic how life works out. Just when you don't want something you have been chasing after, just when you are happy and satisfied in what you have, that thing you were looking for falls right into your hands. And ten years later, I am so much more a man for it.

Current Location: United States, Tennessee, Cordova
Current Mood: reflective

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Well... I... uh... upgraded my LJ account... now I have ads. Sorry.
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Yeah... that pretty much sums it up. MySpace ate my LJ. I do plan on coming back here though... much more... thought provoking.

Current Location: Work...hehe

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Okay, I know I haven't updated in a while... but WHAT THE F..?

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So you know all that rain you South Cackalaks got yesterday? Well its become a nice snowstorm here. There's probably about 4-6 inches on the ground now and it "doesn't show signs of stopping". But I don't have an corn for popping.

This is a view from my hotel room taken from my webcam at 9AM this morning.


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I can't say that I'm TOO suprised by this...

You are a

Social Moderate
(55% permissive)

and an...

Economic Liberal
(18% permissive)

You are best described as a:


Link: The Politics Test on OkCupid Free Online Dating
Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

I actually liked that quiz. Pretty insightful. Its kinda funny, but it seems like a lot of the answers I gave fell in line with Christian teaching... hmm... makes ya think.
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I need some FRIENDS for Animal Crossing: Wild World or Mario Kart DS. If you play either of these on WiFi, email me you friend code & I'll email you mine!

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Too long. Man the last time I posted was November when I as in NYC. Well, That went ok. The 5th Ave store looks awesome and they are kicking some serious butt up there. If you happen to be in NYC, check out the Best Buy on 5th & 44th. It'll probably be the most unique store (Best Buy) you ever visit.


Several months later I find myself in a hotel in Milford, CT. We're setting up a store in nearby Trumbull, CT. The weather isn't bad so far. I guess right now, and most of the time I write on LJ, I'm feeling very reflective. Its weird, but not really. But for those who know me well, I just deleted every pirated program/game/rom off of my laptop. It accounted for about 14GB of stuff. 7 of which was GameBoy roms. I've just felt very convicted - to borrow a churchism - about the whole thing. I can't present myself as a Christian to the guys I work with if I'm willing to brag/show off blatant disregard for stealing. And that's what it is.

I miss my girls. I'm beginning to see how hard this is on not just me and Jess, but on Samantha. I hate it. I hate seeing her so angry, either from my anger or from her own because I'm not there. It breaks my heart. The whole reason I took this job was to help out our financial situation. And God knows (He got the job for me) it has. But is being away for 3-4 weeks at a time worth it? Will I miss Reilly's first steps? Will I miss her first words? I remember tearing up when I saw Samantha walk by herself the first time - my heart so very full of pride in my daughter.

Will is miss that with Reilly? Is the money worth cherished memories and family? No. But what choice do I have right now?

God is so working on me right now. If you're in my small group and you are reading this, thank you. When you prayed for me those few weeks ago you could not know how God would truly remind me of Who I Am.

Current Mood: thoughtful thoughtful
Current Music: Remy Zero - Save Me

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Its been a busy day today. Everyone is so glad that we are in the home stretch with the store. Yesterday (Friday) we were just making the minor touches complete on store that we could. We are still waiting on a few parts and signs to come in. We also have one more shipment of product coming Monday. We have to be ready for Grand Opening Wednesday afternoon. Even though the official G.O. is Friday, the store has they're Family Night (a chance for family to shop and see the store before the public) Wednesday night and two major artist signings Thursday. Dolly Parton will be there at 11AM and Rob Thomas (Matchbox 20 fame) will be there at 6PM. I told my mom about Dolly today and she nearly flipped. Needless to say she is a big fan. I'll try to get an autograph or at least a photo for Mom.

About today...

This morning I really needed to catch up on some sleep so I slept until 10AM. It was nice. After the Triple S series we headed out to the Digital Life convention over on 11th Ave. It was such a beautiful day today. The wind was blowing and the temperature was around 60 all day. After a week of sloshing back and forth to work in the pouring rain it was a welcome sight. The walk over, although far was great. The convention was pretty cool. Kinda like a mini CES (Consumer Electronics Show). Be sure to check out some of the pictures here. We saw a lot of cool things but after working for Best Buy for four years, I'm not really surprised or impressed by much. We did get to check out the XBOX 360. Although that's kind of a sore subject right now. We SHOULD have had it installed in the store Friday but the unit we were shipped has turned up missing. It was locked up in the store, but it has disappeared. My guess is a manager took it home to check it out. Hopefully it will show up Monday because it is a centerpiece of the Video Game Test Drive area of the first floor of the Midtown store. I guess Microsoft figured that it would be a good idea to put their new toy in such a high traffic area. I hope it plays out well for the store.


After the convention we were only a block from the East River so we walked over. When we got there we saw the USS Intrepid and decided to check it out. The USS Intrepid (see photos) is a WWII aircraft carrier that was converted into a floating museum. Kind of like the USS Yorktown in Charleston. They have several different kinds of planes on the deck including a SR-71 Blackbird and an Israeli Fighter. There was also a retired Concorde jetliner that you could walk through. That plane is a LOT smaller in person. Inside the flight deck of the Intrepid are several halls that have exhibits for flight, space and seafaring. It was pretty cool.

We started the long trek back to the hotel (from 12th Ave & 46th St to 7th Ave &31st St) and it looked like it was going to rain. But again it was a nice walk. Down 46th are some nice low-rise apartments and restaurants. It gave me hope for that the city is more than skyscrapers and high-end shops. All I could think as I walked through the neighborhood was "This looks just like Sesame Street". :)

And now I'm back in the hotel writing to you, friend. I hope life is finding you well and you are enjoying it to the most. You only get this chance NOW. Will it come again? Maybe. Don't plan on maybe. Love your friends. Love your family. Enjoy the opportunities God gives you when He gives them to you.

Here's a quote I heard watching a documentary on the Intrepid today:

Any day you have a doorknob on this side of the door is a good day.
-- A Vietnam P.O.W.
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Its the self-attacking dog from GeekFest 2005!
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